Feeling this bad never felt so great.

Dear you,

There will be things in life that come at you, that change your perception, and shake you to your core. You will go through the continual rollercoaster processes of sadness, anger, and then care-free. This continuous up and down motion. You’ll feel sick, you’ll feel anxious and then eventually you’ll feel calm. You begin to realise that without those awful and hurtful moments, you can’t fully embrace the warm and fulfilling ones. There would be no gratitude for life, and for the feelings that makes your tummy swirl in the most magnificent way, the stinging of your cheeks from the smile that you can’t seem to wipe from your face, those tear stains that come from laughing so hard when you can barely breathe. Those are the moments that make feeling bad, actually feel pretty damn great.

There are many challenges that life throws at us, to see how strong we are and what we can handle. All anyone wants in life is to be happy, right? Yet, we are guaranteed to face multitudes of horrific situations that leave us feeling overwhelmed. These are the situations that cause us to feel like our heart is literally being taken out of our chest. The hands on the knees, wanting to vomit at the thought of a person or situation. The trembling of our hands as we re-visit a place that once meant so much to us. These feelings are our reality check, this is what keeps us human and what drives us to better ourselves. It’s how we come to realise that we need to make the most of the wonderful times we have in those raw and present moments.

If there are horrible moments like these that come up for you, say a kind f*ck you to the universe and then let yourself process. Go through the waves of emotions that will literally crash into your soul. Then pick yourself up and let yourself move forward. There’s a difference between feeling what you need to feel and wallowing in the abyss of hurt. Everyone has different time frames, everyone handles these circumstances differently and everyone feels to a different degree. That is okay. That is normal. There is no right or wrong on how you handle the tough periods that arise for you. Just make sure you check in with yourself and understand what you’re feeling and what you need.

Try putting yourself first for a change. Try looking at things in a new light. Maybe you needed your perception to change. Maybe you needed to be shaken to your core. With these situations it can provide more clarity and stillness. Allowing yourself to deserve more, through finding out what you want and what you’re willing to do to protect your heart. Stand your ground and know that these feelings of hopelessness, hurt and frustration will pass. Just as it did the last time something came up. And look at you, you came out the other side better than ever.

Of course, feeling bad sucks. However, it’s what we need in order to feel great.

With love,

AC x